Intentionally Finding My Joy

I know you are thinking, …..WHAT?  How hard could it be?  You’re in paradise!  That I am and loving every moment.  However,  I have been reading about finding joy for the last week and there is a difference in happiness, peace and joy!  Joy is what I want, passionately.

Happiness is an emotion that is based on outside sources.  You feel it when someone does something for you, with you, around you.  It’s external and it’s a bit over-rated.

Peace is a state of serenity we can get in at times.  It feels amazing, until the phone rings, the baby cries or you wake up, figuratively speaking.

Joy, on the other hand is a state of the heart that can not be affected by any outside sources.  You alone can control whether you have it or not.  No one can mess with your joy, unless you give them permission.  So, how do I find it?

First, I am pretty sure I need to start with myself.  I have this tendency to seek approval from others.  Hey, I need to come to the realization that I can’t please everyone and I don’t need to.  It is so not necessary.  As much as I would like to be perfect, I am a long way off.  I am however a work in progress.  God is ok with that, so I guess I should be as well.

Second, I need to find what I treasure in life.  I have found that you can treasure a marriage, kids, friends, or even things.  They will all let you down at some point.   Joy must come from treasuring the fact that God’s agenda is much better than my own.  I am working on this one.

Third, Let go of the past.  Be present in the now.  Bygones by Bygones, right?  Easier said than done!  You can wreck your joy thinking about your past.  I will try not to dwell on the shame, guilt and hurt I have experienced in my life.  I know you are disappointed… but I am NOT perfect.  Dwelling on those things will keep you in a deep dark hole, I know that from experience.  It’s a choice.

Fourth, Be present in the now!  This one is a biggy!  I am very guilty of NOT experiencing moments myself.  I am working hard on this one though.  I need to put the cell phone down when I am with other people and be all in.  I need to learn to clear my mind of all the clutter going on up there.  Develop new relationships by listening and sharing.  Being in the moment allows you to see, hear and feel in a new way.  That my friends in pure joy.

Fifth, I need to try to give something away everyday.  Can’t be that hard.  Give encouragement.  Someone may need an extra pair of hands, I need to pay attention.  Hold a baby, to give a Mom a break.  A biggy is forgive.  Giving something away gives you and the receiver something special, so why not?

Sixth, and lastly, Glory in what you have.    Here’s a few things I glory in:  Being in this place, sunrises and sunsets, music, dancing, and laughter.

What brings you joy? Just sayin’

Quiche at Pete’s

7:30 am Friday morning we head over to Pete’s house, basically to loan him a dozen eggs.   He was going to cook quiche for a friend.   Next thing you know, Gail and I are cooking the quiche and doing some house cleaning for Pete.  It just happens that way around here.  His friend Mike never showed but Heather and Fletcher came by and ate with us.  The weather has been amazing to say the least.  January here is usually chilly.  We it’s 80 plus and light wind.  That equals fishing!
Gail and I went home for maybe an hour around 11:00.  We got a few things done,  then headed out in our swimsuits, in pursuit of a fishing trip with Pete.  We were on the boat by 12:30.  We trolled a bit, then mostly bottom fishing.  Just being out there on the water brings me such joy.  I love to fish.  The funniest fishing moment and a first for me is when Gail pulled out a book.  (Wait…. why did she have a book on the fishing boat to begin with)  Wait for it…..
She began reading a poem out loud!  Yes, to Pete and I.  You can’t make this crap up!  We all got a good laugh out of it.  I will say that Pete let her bring in the first fish, a trigger.  Maybe there is something to this poetry reading thing.  HA HA!  We got several good bites, a few big ones got off but we didn’t bring home many fish.  Doesn’t matter.  I love fishing!
Now Greg (Pete’s son) on the other hand, caught the largest grouper I have ever seen in person.  (or in fish)  He went out alone and brought home the bacon.  He has to.  Pete’s Pub guest have to eat.
After an exhausting day of fishing we got back home around 4 and had to be at Pub by 5:50.  We enjoyed a great dinner with Marie and West. (They own the cottage we are staying in presently).  It was a fun night and a long day.  Wow this kinda of fun can be exhausting.  Both of us are sleeping like babies here in this place.  Ah the Peace!

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Bringing in the year with a bang…

New Year’s Eve started with a 4 mile walk/Island exploration.  We came home and ate and rested.  Then we sat out for a little sea glass searching.  The wind was still way too strong, the tide was too high, so we were getting way to wet.  We will have to wait until another day for that.  We got a few pieces.

We then went to Jan’s at 3 for a game of Rubikub.  That was a fun way  to pass the afternoon.  By the time we wrapped that game up, it was time to get ready for the party at the pub.  It was to start at 6.

At 6  O’Clock sharp, we were there.  We had the honor of hearing Elizabeth Pitcairn, an American Classical Violinist, perform a few songs in the gallery.   Her family owns the closest Island from Little Harbour, so they have been around here for quite a while.  Hearing her play is quite an honor.  It is usually very hard to get a ticket to see her perform around the world and this was a very intimate setting. (Wikipedia – Just google her)

Jammin’ Jan was our musical entertainment at the Pub tonight.  The food was amazing.  Pete made his famous Lobster Bisque.  The balance of the meal included Panko fried Lobster, New York Strip, Mashed sweet/white potatoes, salad and many desserts.   I brought half of my steak home.  I will have a sandwich or some steak and eggs, I can promise you that.  Eventually, the dancing would begin and begin it did.  I am pretty sure I danced for 4 hours straight.  Never in a million years did I think we would make it to midnight, but we did.  We toasted with champagne and watched the fireworks with Pete.  We brought it in right.  We walked home, safe and sound and ready for 2013.  Bring it on!

We woke up early, feeling great.  Marie and West invited us to their Brunch at the house.  We had Coffee, Bloody Mary’s, Mimosa’s, Fried Eggs, Bacon, fruit and Pancakes made by a chef from the Abaco Club who was also present,  Antonio and Sharon.  They are now our new best friends, great couple.  It was an awesome way to spend our first morning.  After sitting there for hours and visiting, we were both sinking, so a nap was in order, right?  Wrong!

As we are heading down the stairs we here, “Where are the girls?”  It is Charlie and Wellie.  They are going out for lobster, wanted to see if we would like to join them.  Well, how could we say “NO” to that?  We threw on our swimsuits and jumped on the back of the golf cart with them and off to Pete’s we went.   We got water from the bar, Charlie and Wellie went to get the boat.

Let me pause to describe the boat… we are talking a 12 foot wooden skiff, with 1 x 8’s as seats and an old piece of PVC as a tiller, the paint job… well there really wasn’t one, and to top it off, it was taking on a little water.  Low and behold there was a cut out chlorine bottle to use a a scoop for bailing.  No Worries!

That didn’t stop us… We hopped on board with smiles on our faces with Charlie (the town drunk) and Wellie (My friend Susan’s Boyfriend).  These guys have been doing this for their entire lives.  It was crazy to watch.  We were probably not out there 30 minutes.  Wellie put on his wet suit, jumped over board with his Hawaiian sling and came up with this massive lobster on the end of it.  He threw it on board and Gail let out a small scream and we both retracted our feet from the floorboard of that skiff.  Beautiful crustacean I must say!  After two more searches, Wellie said, “That’s Enough” and we headed to shore.

When we were safe and sound at the Pub, we decided to have one blaster for for that nap.  It was probably 2:30 pm by then.  So we sat at the bar and visited and laughed.  Charlie prepared that Lobster for us and put it in a bag with ice in the freezer in the pub.  Dinner!!!!  Willie and Pete appeared not soon after and we laughed and talked with those two for another hour or so.  Meanwhile, Pete had ordered us all lunch.  Lobster bisque and cheese toast.  It was amazing.   Pete can make some soups now.

After lunch, Pete and Willie went and got some rods and reels and we met them at the pier.  Here we were off to sea again, and with two men, imagine that!  We cruise the byte for conch.  We found four.  Now I did get these myself.  I was the retriever.  Ha ha!  After floating around in the shallows for conch, we headed in and stopped by Dr. Jerry’s for a bit.  We floated in there harbour and watched them work on the boat lift.  Really, I am not kidding.  This is what you do in the Bahamas.  You work and watch people work.  Piddle may be the best word.  But hey, we are sitting on the most beautiful water you can possibly imagine, watching the most amazing sunset with not a care in the world.  It just doesn’t get much better.

So, after sunset, safe and sound on the shore and after the retrieval of our Lobster of the day, we walked home to prepare our steak and lobster dinner and looked at each other, laughing, “You can’t make this crap up and you can’t plan it either”

This has been a whirlwind entry into Little Harbour.  Things will slow down, starting today and postings will be more thoughts than activities, but I had to share.  This has been a fun 4 days.  Makes me smile.

BTW:  Internet is not great up on this hill, so photos are hard to upload.  They take a while.  I have so many photos that I want to upload it’s crazy.  Guess I need to be more selective, so I will try this time and in the future.  Thanks for reading!  Comment as well.

P S To top of the fun year in a positive fashion, Devin won his first round in Singles in the Challenger in Brazil.  That is a big deal.  He may be able to pay for his trip over.  I am so very happy for my boy!  It’s gonna be a great year!

Trying something different here – Look at photos on this link, my facebook page.  Uploading much faster there.  Bringing in the New Year Album

You can’t make this crap up… You can’t plan it either!

Literally in PJ’s until noon.  Worked on computer a bit, not a bad gig!  Took Gail on a walking tour of the Island and to meet Cathy and Gordy, up the hill.  Split a blue cheese burger at Pete’s.  We were gonna walk back to the cottage for a nap (We’d had such a grueling day so far), but stopped off a the gallery to talk to Jan about some new songs to learn and here comes Pete and some Bahamian guys.  Who knew that 5 minutes later we would be serenaded by guitar and singing.  You can’t make this crap up and you can’t plan it either.

We walked the rest of the way home via the beach and Pete’s house, only to stumble on to a dinner party.  Pierre Pete invited us in for food, wine and fellowship. We got home at 6:44 pm, (late night).  The stars were unbelievable.  We watched the moon rise and sang a little deck Karaoke.  We were in bed by 9.  Fun Night – Day 2!

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Let The Games Begin…

First, let me get one thing straight… there is only a handful of people I would allow to join me on my Island Sabbatical, for a lot of reasons.  A few major qualifications include, being able to do your own thing and enjoy being alone.  You must be able to just chill and look at God’s beauty and be happy with that, there is NO schedule, so relax.  The majority of the time will be spent laughing so, get used to it, your cheeks will hurt.   Lastly and Importantly, Don’t Judge!

Having said that, Gail and I began our journey Friday at 10:30, to be exact.  All the stress leaves my body, the minute I make my flight back to Little Harbour, the place I call home.  It’s a good thing because there could have been some melt downs the last few days and there were zero.  I was packed and ready to go with a smile on my face.  As is says in my new favorite song by Keb’ M0′ (Thanks Clay),

“l hear a voice
And l hear the sound
The sound of my shoes
shuffling on out of town
Too many people
Too many cars…”  – Just listen to it!

Went to pick up Gails right on time at 10:30 am and surprisingly, she was ready!  That’s crazy!  I gave her a two thumbs up, (would have given her a “tater”, but she refuses to do that – too redneck, hahaha”).  Her being ready, wow, I never saw that coming.  We had to stop at the bank, so we went the long way to the airport, didn’t matter… we had plenty of time.  Well, all that was about to change.  We sang the above song over and over on the way to the airport.  We made it to the roundabout when it hit her – “OMG, I forgot my passport”.  After a moment of shock, I just made the circle and started heading back to her house.  It was what it was.  It was raining so freaking hard.  I wasn’t convinced we would make it back but we made it 20 minutes before take off.  Let the laughter begin.  To top it off, the lady at the Southwest desk pages Gail… moment of panic!  No worries, they just tore her bag.  Our two flights went smooth from that point, and we made it to the Hilton Bar… we both needed food.  We sat in there, with not a care in the world and laughed so much we were crying all night.

To bed we went 10ish, early flight in the am.  We were up at at ’em at 5:30 and on the shuttle to Twin Air Calypso and to paradise by 6:10 am.  The first place we were dropped off was the “old office”, I knew it didn’t look familiar, so we grabbed the driver and said, “Don’t leave us”, sure enough the office was around the block.  We drug our luggage into the hallway, driver left, only to find the door to the airline locked up tight!  I wasn’t really worried, they are on Bahama time, they would be there soon!  Hummmm, flight was supposed to be at 8 am, it was 7:15, wasn’t looking good at this point.  Some guy walks past us and informs us that Twin Air went out of business months ago…. WHAT?  Oh well!  So I spent the next hour and a half searching for flights, while Gail was relaxing and texting.  There was no panic, no worries, it was just another adventure.

We finally changed locations.  We drug our crap to another part of the building and started looking pitiful (not really we were still all smiles).  We could at least see airplanes and a few pilots scurrying around.  Yes, we told them all our sob story (hard to convince it was a sob story since we were still laughing).  Finally, one bit.  All of a sudden, Gail was handing me some man’s cell phone saying, “Take this, I can’t understand a word he is saying”.  A few minutes later, we had us a pilot driving over from Miami to Fort Lauderdale to pick us up and take us to paradise.  So we waited.  Meanwhile this guy walks in and grabs our luggage and says, “The pilot will be here soon and I am putting you a couple of seats in the plane now” – HAHAHAHA This should be interesting.  Thirty minutes later, “Our Pilot” arrives.  Sketchy?  Maybe!  Mafia type, died black hair, large mustache, Hawaiian shirt (which I have an adversion to), White linen pants and aviator shades.  Ok, I will give him the shades, he is a pilot, or at least says he is.  What do we know?

We make the walk across the tarmack, passing some beautiful private planes.  We are smiling from ear to ear.  We chartered our on plane.  Whoo Hoo!  Then we see her.  We almost wet our pants.  I swear it was held together with duck tape.  We just laughed and said a prayer and jumped on board.  Gail did say that her family would be pissed at me if we crashed.  Well, I was worried about that, I can tell you!  HA HA  (See photos).

We did make it safely, Danielle and Maria were waiting on us at the airport.  I have no idea why they were there at that particular time, because I had not let them know when we would eventually arrive.  We went to the Jib Room for lunch.  Gail tasted her first Conch.  We toasted our arrival and laughed some more.  Next, was our grocery shopping experience, then a nap.  Our first night was perfect, as Susan had a pot luck dinner.  Gail was exposed to the entire Island all at once.  Great food, great friends… it doesn’t get much better.  On the walk home, the moon was full and amazing and she said, “I get it”!

We sat on the deck, listened to some music, laughed some more and went to bed early.

Let The Games Begin!

‘Twas The Night Before Christmas… My Version!

‘Twas the night before Christmas, when all thru my pad,
Not a creature was stirring, it was driving me quite mad
No stockings were hung, for no children were there
No hope for St. Nicholas but not to despair
No children were nestled they’ve gone their own way,
Not sure what a sugar plum is, to this day.
I have no ‘kerchief, but was sipping a night cap,
I had just settled down with a dog in my lap.
When up in my head there arose such a clatter,
I threw the dog off wondering what was the matter.
Was I going crazy again or just beat
I threw back the curtains and looked down the street
The moon oh how glorious as it hung in the sky
The stars were like diamonds, I felt I could fly
Then, what to my wondering soul should appear,
But a this feeling of peace and the absence of fear
So in that still moment, so sudden and quick,
I knew right away this wasn’t St. Nick.
It was warm and accepting and I smiled as it came,
I sang out and shouted, and called out his name:
Not Dasher, not Dancer, not Prancer, or Vixen,
No Comet, No Cupid, No Donner or Blixen!
From the top of my head to the tip of my toes!
I felt the true Christmas and the love He bestows.
As I lowered in my head, all my sadness was gone,
I felt nothing but Thankful as I looked into dawn
Not facebook, not twitter, no good glass of wine,
No church house, not blogging, nor a telephone line
Not the car that you drive, or the greatest new toy
No promotion or money will bring you this joy
I’ve tried gettin’ it right, til I’m blue in the face
When alas I have found that our gift is his grace.
He spoke not a word, but I knew he would say
For you, Baby Jesus was born on this day
So with this I exclaim, with all of my might
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night.

Jubilee by Mary Chapin Carpenter

Jubilee

I can tell by the way you’re walking
That you don’t want company
I’ll let you alone and I’ll let you walk on
And in your own good time you’ll be

Back where the sun can find you
Under the wise wishing tree
And with all of them made we’ll lie under the shade
And call it a jubilee

And I can tell by the way you’re talking
That the past isn’t letting you go
But there’s only so long you can take it all on
And then the wrong’s gotta be on its own

And when you’re ready to leave it behind you
You’ll look back, and all that you’ll see
Is the wreckage and rust that you left in the dust
On your way to the jubilee

And I can tell by the way you’re listening
That you’re still expecting to hear
Your name being called like a summons to all
Who have failed to account for their doubts and their fears

They can’t add up to much without you
And so if it were just up to me
I’d take hold of your hand, saying come hear the band
Play your song at the jubilee

And I can tell by the way you’re searching
For something you can’t even name
That you haven’t been able to come to the table
Simply glad that you came

And when you feel like this try to imagine
That we’re all like frail boats on the sea
Just scanning the night for that great guiding light
Announcing the jubilee

And I can tell by the way you’re standing
With your eyes filling with tears
That it’s habit alone keeps you turning for home
Even though your home is right here

Where the people who love you are gathered
Under the wise wishing tree
May we all be considered then straight on delivered
Down to the jubilee

‘Cause the people who love you are waiting
And they’ll wait just as long as need be
When we look back and say those were halcyon days
We’re talking ’bout jubilee

Dear Diet…

It’s not me, it’s you. I just don’t think it’s going to work between us. You’re boring, tasteless and I can’t stop cheating on you. But I do keep coming back!
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